i am tard

thanks to everyone for their comments on my last few posts, including some people who i didn't even know stopped by my blog. i still have so much to learn and i need to dedicate myself and put a lot more time into studying than i have been. i know this, i've known it for awhile (and written about it), and i think (and hope) that the time w/o a bankroll will help me to reset a little and take it from the top. i am definitely hoping to re-deposit -- i tried my trusty credit card that worked for me up until july and it's done. it would have been a good idea to try making a credit card deposit before i withdrew, just to confirm that i could reload if i needed to. i am such a donkey. a few people offered to trade me ftp $ for cash and if you have more cash on ftp than you know what to do with, i will happily trade you real american dollars for it (they're not as valuable as they used to be, but they do match up 1:1). i am in the process of getting my bank account verified by paypal for ease of payment -- they say it takes 3-5 days, so i think i'd be ready for trades by wed at latest. i can also send you a check, that i promise will clear, but that seems old-fashioned.

i realize that having to post this is slightly pathetic, so no need to comment on that, but thanks in advance if you can help out.